Why??

I thought that im moving forward.

But the thing is others are moving double of my speed.

I felt pressure.

A lot~

Feel like regretting now.

But I CANT!

Hard times really do come although how much i like it.

Dad im so sorry.

Im so DAMN STUPID!!!

USELESS!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!

乱乱~

近期，我知道越来越多事情了

我感觉到我复杂的世界好像回来了

看了很多人的blog

她们都开始烦事情了

haih~

我也发现，有些人我好像看露了

有些好像看错了

好人看成坏人

坏人看成好人

勤劳的却看成懒人

懒人事实上不是懒的

好乱哦~

还以为我可以平静度过日子

ASHLEY!!!!

不要想太多！（这是，某人最爱跟我说的^^）

我一定能看开的

我相信我能

^^

26Jun2010

Was quite busy with my assignments this days.

I actually found out what TOA actually means!!!

TOA = Thousands Of Assignments!!!

OMG!

Thats so match.

Today, i went to KL pac.

I thought it will be so fun and surprise to go there.

But i end up to some disappointed.

It was pack with PPL.

And its so Damn Hot!!!

But the fun part was 3 cars going down together.

It was quite interesting.

We end up going back to pyramid to shop.

I met my kai mui accidently with her close college friends.

Hahhahaa.

I felt funny when both of us

erm...

I mean her friend and me know each other because we both like to live comment on my kai mui status.

Hhahaa.

So weird and funny!!!

Assignments^^

Yippie!!\

I finish figure study and my design or my initial name.

Now doing IEST'S essay.

Then tmr left color wind shield and drawing 1.

>.<

Make me feel at least better now.

Jia you Ya.^^

Kick out.

不知道是我多心还是什么

我又发现他们开始离我很远。

我又做错了吗？

好辛苦

为什么？？？

每个环境都是这样？

难道我这人很讨人厌吗？

我真的不知道

有谁可以好心告诉我

T.T

Thank you fren^^

Thank you owl for teaching today. 

I really appreciate. 

Haha. 

I think im not sttanding on the smae ground ady.

I actually walking forward by improving.

>.<

Gambateh Ashley.

Owl!

Dont run away ya.

I wont let you.^^

Muahahhahaha

Unfaithful Fren

Thanks YS. >.< For teaching me. LOL

Maybe i shouldnt have always on fb. I always can see you in it. But somehow im not in your world ady. Maybe you will think that im wrong. But this is me. Maybe im not pretty la. But i want to get along with you. Or somehow i never should be appearing in your world.

I Felt like quite stupid that i always need to smile or laugh in front of you because i do not want you to worry bout me. Im trying hard in a way with my full pack of assignments. Maybe you are too. But in fb i never heard from you.

This days i always heard from my friends about ex friends. Im scared to lost another one again. AND i dont want to. I love and appreciate everyone of you. But  please dont try to hurt me. 

（如果你觉得很伤的话，对不起。但是，这已经在我心里很久了。）

Lazinesssss

Today wanted to go 1u want. But at the end dint go maybe because of our laziness. LOL.

Someone said that i actually change a lot.

They mean pretty larr.

Hahahah.

To me maybe they dint see clearly.

LOL.

Seriously i fall in love with editing pictures.

Thanks to amilia who taught me Picasa Program.

This days i started to get to know all my classmate personality.

Some of them think some of them were like that and some of them do not.

Its somehow complicated in a way.

I found out today today actually like me calling her TOBY JIE.

She a cute little 20 years old friend.

XD

Yesterday one of my friend ask me when are we going small genting.

Was quite happy that he rmb tho.

LOL

Eh, one day la....

When im not having tons of assignment.

I miss my working days!!!!

No assignment!!!

No @!?#$! problem!!!

No need to stay at home duno what to do!!!!

AH!!!!!!

（PS:事实是这样。就请你接受吧！）

Picturess Again. XD

Fall In Love In Editing. <333

Busy Days

Today was kinda busy for me.

I went out with my secondary classmate.

Pui Kuan, Ah Yoke, Kar Nee and Elieen.

We went sing k at red box.

Duno why im so freaking crazy today.

Maybe of my emo issue gua.

But the truth i have lots of fun.

Thank you for KN for frocing me come.

LOL

Later on i drove my sister to SS2.

I damn happy le.

I actually know how to drive there.

Hahahhaha.

Then i went to my grandma house to eat 'zhong'

In ampang.

Im damn lazy these days.

I have 2 potrait and 6 small potraits to draw.

I was thinking to draw today wan.

Hahhaa.

It seem that i have no mood at all.

LOL.

Tmr bah.

Haih.

Duno why the stupid feeling coming back to me again and again.

F you!!

Get away from my life please.

AIYO!!!

人生到底有多少机会呢？

没有人知道。

所以请珍惜现在拥有的。

XD

Moodiness

I somehow found out that almost everyone that i cared the most always leave me in a way.

Maybe they started their own new life.

The life that is better then me.

The life that include friends that is better then me.

Maybe i'm so stupid or brainless to actually fall into the same hole again and again.

We are once so close.

I've never thought of us will separate or even not contacting each other.

Did i tried my best in our friendship?

YES, I DID.

And what i get?

NO RESPOND.

Hahahahaha.

Today, i found out that some issue that im suppose to know.

I think.

We dint actually tried to ignore it.

Somehow i felt everyone should actually tried their best in a way.

Not just sitting there.

This issue actually bring me back to a lot of memories.

I was once a stupid idiot and fall into a stupid friendship.

That i thought we will be so call FRIENDS FOREVER.

Then later on?

All left me because of their so call important stuff.

After this incident, i always have the same issue with friends.

But i still think that if i take my heart to you, i think you will too.

Although some will take my 良心当狗吠.

But i still met some nice friends.

For instance today, I have not actually have the chance to tell my emo stuff yet

because of the new enviroment.

But today my elephant friend actually listen to me.

IM SO GREATFULL.

XD

Hope she did not felt that im too grumpy.

Hahhaa.

I seriously need a time off.

And it help by telling it out in a way.

Just wanna tell everyone that

People are not perfect, please do appreciate the ones beside you.

Or else

One day you regret.

Trust me.

=)

友情也会有第三者的

There's always a third person in our life.

(Ps: 做人要往前看，不要每次往后看。不值得。>.<)

PiCtuR3sss

Drawing Zoo FCD1005-3 by JAYIS

Real person of Zoo FCD1005-3

(Owl>Ashley, Elephant>Yong Shee, Flamingo>Jayis, Snail>Toby,

Giraffe>Amilia and Botak Owl> Angel )

Toby, M3, Angel and YS

Crazy Group Of Friends That i appreciate. >.<

2 cuties...

Kena Paksa to take. Look like owl meh?? ==

We are twins Owl. Yeah.

We tried to look like a couple but end up he look like my gf. lol

I love this picture a lot.XD

Some of my work done in MAY.

Sucks. But my best potrait pic i drawn in MAY.

This apple was eated by me after the lec let us look at it to draw. HAhaha

Figure class. Our 1st class Photo.

Love this Photo too.^^

Amilia on top.

Qiao Sze, Toby and me below.

Today B&W picture. YEAH!!!

The Whole Entire May =)

Im so so sorry for not updating for a month.

Was kinda busy>.<

I mean very very busy.

I will make it a summary for this month. XD

I started in TOA with a feeling of weird ppl in the class room.

Last time, i felt that ppl who love art will actually be very very weird.

LOL.

BUT!!! After 1 or 2 weeks, I get to know well each and everyone in FCD1005-3.

They were actually as crazy as i am.

Sad to admit tho~

Hahahhahahaa.

We hang out sometime but the most i miss was the steamboat dinner.

This is my first time going to eat steamboat with total of 11 ppl.

Was kinda sad with not everyone could attend.

Hope next time we still have all this function.

XD

Although i have only 17 ppl + me in the classroom, but we really do have fun together.

I found out something that mostly everyone love taking pic.

Especially JAYIS>.<

Normally i always sleep around 10 or 11pm, but nowadays i sleep at 1 or latest 4 something in the morning.

I never thought i could actually stay up because of assignment.

I alway thought that sleeping is more important then assignment.

LOL.

We somehow starting to have nickname.

And..... You know what?

This time my nickname is owl!!?!

DO I ACTUALLY LOOK LIKE AN OWL??

LOL

But someone else has a worst nickname ever.

That is botak owl.

She hate it a lot.

But i do think so that is very cute.

In my class, we have owl, botak owl, flamingo, girrafe, snail and elephant.

Hahhahaa.

Happy zoo class.

XD

Today JAYIS came with an idea by wearing black and white.

We took a lot of picture too.

Happy~~

>.<

Thats all i rmb. But if i rmb anything that i miss out.

Dont worry.

Ill post it.

LOL

PS: Seriously after taking class in TOA, somehow i forgoten those who hurt me.

My emo haven been coming out last month or in class.

I admit that these 2 days it coming back again but ill try not too~

But i hope YOU NEVER APPEAR IN MY LIFE AGAIN.