Dissapointment that strikes to my heart.

I have lots of questions in my heart now. Why do people like to hurt others? Why everytime the same situation happen in my life. EVERYTIME! I'm starting to hate this feeling~ Isnt people doesn't like a person give all their heart to them? They want a fake people that treat them what they want them to be treated? I'm really tired to be what people want me to be~ Very tiring~ Please do not wear a mask to be friend with me. You wont like it same as me~ Cant we just be ourself living in a normal happy life? Everytime when i start to trust some one, the person will leave me with a empty heart. I know everyone is not PERFECT. I'm not perfect too!!!! I'm human too!!! TREAT ME NORMALLY PLEASE~~~ I have feeling too, NOT ONLY YOU!!!

Finish CIMP =)

Phew~ haha. I finished my Pre-U XD I never know time really flies that fast. It was just like yesterday when i first went to college and was lost inside. From the begining of hatred to the course to NOW that i have fall in love with IT. But the whole thing has put it into the end. It was kind of sad tho.

On 4th of dec, i went to prom. At first, i thought it will be very bored and stupid to go prom because everyone will be llike damn pretty and sit, eat, talk, walk politely. THAT IS SO NOT MY STYLE! lol. It took me 2 hours for my cousin, shirley to make up for me. But really a big thank you to her.haha. The prom was a blast. Saw a lot of ppl that i may not meet them ever again. After prom, ye seul came my house to overnight.XD She told me something that i agreed too. We felt empty after the prom. Like nothing in our heart. To tell the truth, i really do miss most of my friend who i met in CIMP. I really miss the laughter that we always made in the foyer, minnie big voice, ye seul's craziness, mey yie singing SINGLE LADY by BEYONCE, pik yen "the cili padi", sean said " i miss you", angela said " lets go sing k", charlly said "lets go yam cha" and a lot a lot more~

I will seriously hard to forget all those things. All those things will always be in my heart. Im gonna take multimedia course in the one academy. So feel free to come find me. XD lol. My course start at MAY. SO i think im gonna work next year. If not im gonna really become a PIG at home. hahhaha.

Haih~ Still hard to stop thinking bout losing all my friends in CIMP. Miss ya all always. XD

忘不了

不知为何突然很想写中文.. 突然很想念华语~~ 哈哈~
这几天, 我都在想人生里面一定要有伴才能生存下去吗?
答案是我也不知道~~ >.<
我身边有伴的朋友多的是!!
但是看起来幸福又没多少....
事实上幸福的也没多少...
看他们的恋情,
有时另我觉的还是单身最好~

前几天,我朋友帮我算塔锣牌..
我算的是爱情~
他算的好对~
他算的到我没想到任何人会知道的事情~
他帮我算了后~
真的另我想很多很多~
这不是件坏事啊~
他另我面对一些我早就应该解决的事情~
所以我也可以算是解决了~~
也不能完完全全忘了该忘的~~
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我到地是害怕吗?
还是我忘不了他?
还是单身单身最好?

烦死了~~

Future.. @@

I was thinking bout my future nowadays. ( HAhaha.. i know its weird that I AM ACTUALLY THINKING BOUT MY FUTURE..LOL)


Cause i still rmb b4 i started to study CIMP in sunway. I was thinking of studying mass com at first because of my mouth who cant stop talking. LOL. DUN EVEN THINK OF LAGHING. But my parents dun allowed me too because from their information, its hard to get jobs. I think its quite true tho. Hmm~~

Then i listen to my mum to study pre-u first so that i have a choice later. At first, I registered for aus mat in sunway but haha... I heard a lot of ppl say its hard to pass So i transfer to CIMP which im now study currently. To tell the truth, the reason i study CIMP because of the 70% assignment base cause i hate EXAMS!!!! and also its like a lot of foreigner student studying. Haha.. I must admit that i was ONEs CRAZY BOUT KOREANS~~ LOL. But now i felt its normal but i still like them. <333

Now is already OCT, and its time for me to think where to study next year. I dissapointed my parents actually. My dad wan me to study marketing and my mum wan me to study something that include accounting. BUT..... GUESS WHAT MY CHOICE IS???





Hahaha. Graphic Design~~~ >.<





My parents feel that its out of their expectation. By taking this course, theres no use of my CIMP cert. I have to study all over again. But thats my choice. I want to live creatively not deadly in the office. =) I really hope my parents understands me AND DAD, IM SO SORRY YA. =(

Paiseh..

LOL. I can comfirm that im a very lazy person. I never ever can update something frequently. For example, my mail, facebook and even msn. I can just never log in for few months and come back. LOL. And even my OWN BLOG. Haha.

Okok. Lets get back to my life. During august, I had my bdy celebrate with my family on my bdy on itself. I celebrated my bdy with all my mother side of cousin and my college friends and also my two buddies$ on the 30th of August with a small BBQ party. =) My friends who had come was Shayne & Nick(Buddies<33)>

During September, I dun think anything happen much. Just that, there's tons of assignment. And i got a beautiful and wonderful by Ye Seul. LOVE YOU MUCH!!! Its a album feel with lots of pic that unclude me and her=). I can feel she use all her time on it. YE SEUL OH NI~~, NA NEN CHIN JIA SARANGHAE<33333>

Muack.. CHO A HAE~~

The Album>.<

One of the page>.<

Others pages, I'll keep it to myself. =P On october one, I'll try my best to update asap. LOL. Paiseh la.. If i think of anything important, i'll write the next time i login. =D

One week holidays XD

This holiday to me was kinda short. Time flies so fast. Im ending my holidays ady and tmr have to go college. =( So i quickly summariez what i did ya.

This week was kinda full. I went to langkawi with yawan, minnie and ye seul. It was kind of blast. But i was sick during the vaccation too. So sad. The car their all drove around 60km/hour. That was too slow to me. Haha. KL driver will kill or horn loudly to the driver who drive that slow. But langkawi max speed was onli 60km/hour. That was an experience to me. We went to Ceanag to shop and also Kuah Town.

We also went to the duty free to buy damn a lot of chocolate especially me. =D hehe. My friends and i also bought some beer to drink but we cnat finish too. It was damn bitter but was kinda fun drinking it.

The worst part of this holiday was SICK!!! Im still sick now. Damn san fu. LOL. XD but i try my best to drink more water. If i rmb. ahhahah. I will upload my photo in langkawi went i get it from my friends. =D hehe.

Complicated Life

Everyone that are close to each will leave us one day. Everyone needs to know that. I know it long time ago but i never want to admit that i know it. I like everyone that is close to me. No matter whether are families, cousins or friends. I need them every single day to continue my life.

Today, i only realise that most of my cousins have grown up and start to have their own life. Although we are still close but i think i still miss last time. I think i will think bout it like that because almost most of my close friends in college all started their relationship life. Having their BF or GF with them. Although they say its okay. But i will feel akward with them. I feel paiseh. >.<

Hahaha. The funniest part was i will think why i dun have one. I have a lot of friends around me in different gender. But..... LOL. Maybe my time haven come yet?? Maybe....

Although im jealous that all their BF or GF have take them away from me but i still wanna wish all my friends or relative to be HAPPY FOREVER and HAPPY RELATIONSHIP. =) And i know you guys wont left me away. hehe =D

Outings >.<

This few weeks, im kinda always with my friends. ALMOST EVERYDAY. Because of assignments and we also hang out together. So..... Hehe =) Quite fun.

Yesterday, i went to the curve with my friends. This is the first time im driving to a place other then SUNWAY. Haha. Because i duno the way there. One of my friend's car was leading me and another friend's car was behind me too. So we kinda like hamburger. LOL. When we almost reach there, my friends car that was behind me KENA ROAD BLOCK by POLICE. and his not MALAYSIAN. His CHINA. We were so worried but he told us that he give RM50 rasuah and he let him go. HAIH. POLICE...... =.= In the parking lot, i purposely park beside a sport car. I stayed in the car watching the car beside me. I like it so much until me and my korean friend start taking photos of it. Haha. Cause we feel pround. =D

The right side is my car and the left side is the sport car. SOB =( BIG DIFFERENTS.

Haha. My korean friends. So cute.. lol

Com Tech =)

Com tech is what?? Some of you might ask.. Com tech is a subject to leaarn stuff like photographic, video and even how to make your own webside. Cool right?? thats what i thought when i take this subject. But after i took this subject, i only found out the difficulties in this subject.

I was kinda busy for the pass few weeks to take picture and rushing to hand in our assignments before the time come. But the fun part was i learn how to use photoshop. I was kinda having fun taking pictures because i could go out late with my frens to take and also my parents wouldnt think im lying. ( BUT IM OBVIOUSLY NOT) =P

Today was my last day of photography section. Im cant say im happy but im not sad. Tmr we will start video. How to make video!!! YEAH!! Because of com tech... i get to know new frens too. Happy of that!! =) Thanks to the one who is not taking com tech this sem and still help out. >.<

THIS IS SOME OF MY PHOTOS THAT I TOOK MYSELF AND EDIT MYSELF... =D

SO PROUND >.<

ME!! Become a MUTANT. LOL

Haha. My sis as my MOVIE POSTER... =D

My favourite photo of ALL. Its hard to take cause i have to combine 3 to 4 picture to get these. >.<

Do you know where i took from?? HEHE.. PYRAMID!!

My second sis help me with this picture. THANKS M31 M31 =D

The hardest picture of all... >.<

These is some of my pictures. If i have time i will paste all my others photos too. >.<

Ashley's Life

To me, times pass quickly. I still rmb when the first day of my holiday started. I was thinking 'how am i going to survive for 5 weeks holiday without any assignments??'. But now, i only left two weeks holiday that i felt not enough! >.<



During my lazy pass three weeks holiday, went outing a lot. Until my mum also dun really mind that i ask her last min. For example, today's outing with my close college friend. They just planned yesterday.



In this few weeks, i learned something. That is trust. We must alway let our parents know where we are, when we are coming back and who are we going with. In this way, parents will not worry too much and also will let you out easily. ^^

My mum seem to trust some of my frens that i usually goes out with this day. Although, she never really met them but i always mention some of the name. So she wont feel worry easily. =D

College =D

I'm having my 5 weeks break now. Wow. I cant really believe that my first semester has finished. I still remember that i hated college in the first few months. But duno why, slowly slowly... i get the use of college. Maybe because of my friends, or maybe because i started to like studying. HAHAHA. ( Dun laugh!! I myself also dun believe.. LOL)

The thing that i still dun like about college is that i have to say goodbye to some friends that i was just started to be close in the last semester. I really feel sad about some of it. Thank you FRIEND. You guys really bring a lot of memory to me. =D

I really feel bad to my lecturers. I did not do well in my finals. My results is not good too. I tell myself that i have to study hard for next sem. I have to keep this promise!! >.<

FRIENDS~ is the most important thing other then study. In college, there are some happy and also sad memory. All the HAPPY memory is the memory that i will always keep in my heart. But the sad one is the worst to forget. HAHAHA. Dun worry... I will try my best to forget. Love you guys, FRIEND. =D ( no matter what happen, you are still my friend)

13 of April

Today was kinda usual in college. I reach college around 8 in the morning with a pair of sleepy eyes. I ran all the way up to the class to study my OB because there are an exams today. I was so damn TIRED like hell!! When i reach class, i sat down and start studying. But i was not really paying attention at all cause of my eye that are going to turn offline. haha. Later on. MINNIE came to class with her hands full of food like she use too. My test sucks!!??!! I dun even know what am i thinking during the whole test.

After that class, CLAIRE and me went down stairs to the foyer to sit. And i saw AN MAE was doing mdm4u homework, i only realize that i didnt not remember to do. I called a lot of phone call just to book tickets for lee hom concert but i end up doing my mdm homeworks. I was copying the homework like hell.

Later on, i went to ENG class as usual. I hated that class as usual. My lecturer actually put me in a group with ASHLEY WONG. He din do anything. He was only keep talking with BRANSON. I hae guys like that. It is so rude. He end up copying my answer instate of asking or dicussing. I really hope to meet a Maysian chinese guy that are nice, kind and friendly in college. To tell the truth in my college. I haven found any of them are in that category but PEOPLE from other country are way better then my country xometime. But i was kinda sad that HE din came to eng class. =(

MEY YIE and ME went to eat lunch in medan as usual. She was doing her IB homework seriously by so call ''COPYING'' too. lol. Then, we rush to computer lab because she needs to find an article for her IB. She insist of saying the IB lec was cute but not to me tho. I went online too. During that time, i felt my hand was itchy. So i scretch and i felt my hand was BENGKAK. I look onto my hand. It has a very big spot everywhere of my hands and legs. I was scared that time. I called my mom to not stayed in school and want to see doctor. But my mum was in the BANK so i chilled with minnie until around 4pm. HE came out and sat next to minnie. I was so happy although we seldom talk. I felt enough d. haha. I went to see doc after that and went home to rest. Haih. Hope i can go college tmr. ( NOT REALLY!!! LOL.)

1st day Of my HoliDays - BORed 郁闷的一天

Today is my first day of holiday for my College life.

Yeah!!! Thats what i thought yesterday.

Woke up at seven thirty in the morning today because of my PiaNO LessoN.

Piano <33

Before yesterday i still saw my parents but today NOT.

Hahaha. Dont think negatively. My parents actually went overseas.

Im really having a very bored day today.

Other then BORED BORED BORED.. I really cant think of others d. lol.

Im lazy to do anything tho. like assignments, clean my room and etc.

Anyway, i started to actually fall in love at BAsketball..

Although is tiring but is fun when you actually play it.. can release stress too.

Basketball ya.. =)

天使

我已经被抛弃了。孤单，寂寞，伤心对我来说已经习惯了。

我的天使在那？？是否可以早点出现呢？？

我好痛苦哦。。身边的人都好像有天使在旁边。。

有人关怀他们，关心他们，爱护他们。

天使都很偏心，为什么看到我将痛苦都不来拉我一把呢？？

对不起，天使。

我不应该这么说。我知道你不出来是有原因的。

还是你已经在我附近了。我不知道而已。

天使，天使。

不还多长久，我还是希望你能早点出现。

能让我减少些痛苦和烦恼。

爱

你

，

我

的

天

使

。

Another Usual Day

I promised myself to update you but i didnt.. im so sorry.. life make me so lazy sometimes.. yesterday was kinda busy day to me.. the theme for yesterday was '' Back To School'' but i found out that my uniform have been donated.. so sad =(..

I was upsad with my marks for OB yesterday.. it damn fricking hard.. I really cant get it.. tho i will try my very best like i promised to myself.. I THINK.. lolx.. its like secondary history to me.. SUCKX!!!

My ENG4C teacher was absent yesterday so we end our class early.. so i went to old town to meet my two couple best friends.. they are so sweet to me.. we chat and chat and chat a lot.. Me and him keep making fun of her.. sorry ya sis >.<.. hehe.. it was the best way to release stress tho.. ( luv you guys.. muackzx <3>

After that, i went back to college at 4 something to do some dicussion bout our OB presentation.. this time we really put a lot of afford to try tho.. i have a lot of fun with claire and minnie there ''dicussing'' hahahaa.. GAMBATEH!! we must do very well this time..

Then i end up goin back around 9.. i was damn tired wei.. never feel so tired in my life i think.. but it was a nice day tho.. lol.. it make me think back a lot.. like last week i played basketball with minnie and claire.. like those days i and shayne in the school talking and teasing each other.. damn memorable..

Today was kinda dull to me.. i went to school as usual and i end skol as usual.. oh ya.. MEY YIE.. sorry for not eating lunch with you ya today.. after i got lisence i will sure bring you around.. if you dare to sit my car la.. lol.. after that, i went for driving lesson.. i drive for three hours today.. my back is aching until now.. OUCH** sob..

thats all....

ANOTHER DAY...

try to updated as soon as possible

I HOPED

LOL

=P

CIMP " INSIDE OUT DAY"

WOOHOO!!! CIMPIANZ ROCK WEI!!! =)

after the photo session, claire, minnie and me went orange( a restaurant that we went to eat often) to discuss assignment. i think we did tho.. haha

Was taken by Minnie ^^

Claire who is busy on9ing.. hehe..

Minnie that is writting the assignment.. lol

Claire who is startin feel sleepy.. ZZZZ

hehe.. start to take photo d because of boredness tho.. ^^ this is Minnie Mouse =D

M3 and Claire <3

Yeah!! we finish discussing.. then we went to play basketball.. it was fun and tiring le.. love basketball a lot..

We took one photo b4 i went home =)

thats all for thursday.. its was a fun day that some of my fren wore panty outside.. haha..like kelvin and ayesha.. that was so cool.. but i dun really dare.. lol..

bonus picture-i took it in pyramid on valentine days.. it was so romantic wedding that i ever seen in my life.. so sweet..

INSIDE OUT THEM DAY ^^

Yeah!!! yesterday theme was fun!!! ( i think =P) the theme was this week was ''inside out''. that is we have to wear our chlothes inside out or you actually wear your bra out or maybe panty.. lol..

this is hei fa ( i hope i spell ur name correctly XD) she is a cool and nice person..

this crazy cute chinese is called Ma Shue =P

haha.. the hand on the centre is my hand actually..lol

this is us tho =.= haha

can you see who is beside me??? no???

Its Minnie Mouse that is wiping her mouth after eating mummum.. lol

sorry guys.. i damn tiring now.. will upload others as fast as i could ya.. so be patients.. lol.. ciao =)