To you!

妈的！

Early In the Morning^^

Started my Holiday day ady.

Phew¬

I now only feel like i actually a human being.

Before that because of assignments.

I scarifies my beauty sleep.

Felt weird you know.

I actually dint went out with friends from my first day of holiday till now.

Maybe im too tired.

Lazy to drive out or even step out of my room.>.<

But my holiday dint start of with a nice memory.

I started of with a car accident then large presentation and drawing test. @@

Shit like hell.

Later on food poisoning.

Me and my sis.

Haih.

Seriously, my holiday sucks.

The best part was that i can at last sleep for more then 5 hours per day.

( actually i slept for at least 9 hour per day)

Love it.

IELST is just beeside the corner.

Seriously. DUno what to study....

Anyone!!! can you tell me what to study??

haha....

Hope to past it.

I think i will^^

Fb vs Wei Buo

Fall in love with Wei Buo.

A program which is similar with FB.

But to me i felt better.

Cause no one know me.

Unknown.^^

Im back^^

Was so Damn shit stress on this week.

No time to even breath.

But im back for more of my life time story.

Today class was cancel but unfortunately i need to go for group discussion.

which means still have to go SUNWAY.

Our group discuss it in Mc Donalds.

To tell the truth,

I duno whether our points are relevant or not.

What to do???

Tmr need to present.

Haih.

Was even more stress when ker shin told me this.

She said that Pinky praised our group presentation was so damn standard.

She look up so high to me and ker shin.

Was so fuck up stress.

I wasnt scared bout tmr presentation just now.

But now!!

I can feel the stresss.

Hope everything goes well tmr.

Did i forgot to mention???

TMR IS MY LAST DAY O CLASS FOR MY FIRST SEM.

YEAH!!!

That means HOLIDAY!!!!

Not myself anymore

Starting not to hate figure ady.

But this coming monday is my last class.

love it too late.

Art really somehow make me concentrate on it ady.

Her?

She is in somewhere in my heart sitting and resting.

But she will never come out.

Drawing make me has less time thinking nonsenses or even things that do not worth me crying on.

at first when i started in TOA.

I thought i will be the last in the class cause my drawing sucks.

But now drawing is not to compare is somehow learning from others.

In my life now, i seriously spend least of my time caring or even thinking.

Yeah~

Maybe one of my friend said that i shouldnt care so much about ppl

cause you will get hurt easily.

As you can see,

ill get hurt 24-7

But i still like this.

I love my friends in TOA now.

Not much problem~

Peacefull then sunway.

Do i hate sunway?

No~

Just dont like it there.

Sorry for all my lovely readers that care bout me reading all this stupid stuff.

Ill try to post something happier next time.

Cause ill change.

You'll see.^^

LIFE SUCKS!!!

Today was the worst day ever.

WORST DAY!

I was driving to class in the morning.

AND I SAW A DEAD CAT in the MIDDLE OF THE ROAD!!!

I duno whther did i drive through it or ssmash it.

I cant avoid it because it was too late.

Was kinda moody after that.

But i got back into my mood by eating breakfast with elephant and botak owl.

Later, this huge thing happen~

I never thought of it.

I wrote a letter to ye seul, my korean friend yesterday.

It was rough letter.

I told her what i felt and all.

Ask her question that like why she contact MINNIE instead of me?

I was so damn fuck off when minnie told me she change her mind and flying to malaysia next week.

Hahaha.

I was kinda happy that i have the guts to tell everything out.

I really do love my relationship with her.

In class today, i received a call from minnie saying that something huge has happen.

She say that i misunderstand her that she is comning back to give me a surprise!!!

WTF!!!

On that time, i seriously do not really trust her.

Every damn shit thing i know bout ys is from her and duno whether is it correct transfer to me or not.

I went in fb straight away and saw her replied.

I read and only found out that she really do want to give me a surprise birthday party. Earlier.

She thought of not distroying my birthday with my family so she came early.

She prepared my present already and i did not did anything for her.

But i still have a question that why she did not msg me for 6 months. 6 MONTHS!!!

Time make me think a lot. Cant seriously blame me.

How can a person not think badly when the person she care dissapear in her life and knowing her exist from another person.

Haih~

I cried in class~~~

My first time.

Thanks ker shin that given me support in class when im down.

Seriously it helps.

THanks to botak owl and ker shin teman me makan too.

After that i felt better.

When i was driving back home with a speed that i do not know.

I saw the motorcycle in front of me bang in to the wall beside the road.

The whole motorcycle broke into half!

The man fly off the motorcycle.

I did not stop.

Sorry to say that cause if i stop, i will block the whole traffic but i saw another motorist stop and help.

So i drive away.

Today was the worst day of my life!!!

First the dead cat.

Second, YS that duno whether we can can back together.

Last!!! Motorcycle accident in front of me.

WTF LIFE!!!!

以前的我呢？

很可笑~ 我这几天好像发现我不再是以前的韩佩仪了!

不再是那个爱玩爱闹的那个人。

不再是那个懒惰虫。

不再是没有朋友会死的人。

不再是24小时，都在嘻嘻大笑的人。

以前的我，不管在哪都会很开心的笑。

一定要有朋友。

要天天出街。

现在？

变了变了。。。

原因？

我也不知道。。。

是好是坏，我也分不清了~

有人曾经告诉我。。。

孤单并非没有朋友

只是，想透透气~ 看看身边的东西。

PS:

心~

依然跳动着。。。

但是

我已经没有感觉了~

To the So Call ExBff

I just woke up from my nap but still thinking about it.

SERIOUSLY....

SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!

I never knew you say the word weird to me???

I were actually closer to you!!

Right???

Im the one trying to break the ice and you???

Damn shit piss off when i heard from HER.

She ask me do i care anymore?

I say no no more...

Actually i do....

How the hell i could actually say that i care about you???

If you dont even care.

我看错你了

真的离谱的错

You were once my bestest friend 

and

you betray me

and?

i still trying to change things

and??

what did you actually did??

NOTHING!!!

Please dont come back if can.

Knowing bout you make me hurt alot

alot~

Maybe im just a stupid doll for you

to joke and play around

and its time for you to throw?

Hahaha.

Yeah

I think is like that.

Thanks for your short friendship.

Ill never ever forget you.

PS: 世界上，太多带着假面具的人。很难看清或很难明白~肯难交心给他们。

有时交了后，肯不知他们会把我们的心当什么。

友谊万岁？

想清楚在把这四个字说出来吧。。。 朋友！！！！

Bon Ordori

It was yesterday.XD

I went Bon ordori which held at Shah Alma with Ker shin, SW, Lai and a china friend.

We took KTM then Shutter bus there.

WOW~

There a huge crowd there.

This is my first time attending it.

I will never go again in my life SERIOUSLY.

We got lost and actually cant contact each other at all.

WTH.

The line sucks there.

We need to que for so long just to buy food.

I really want to know why ppl actually go for this every year.

Can someone tell me isnt fun to get lost in a crowd?

Anyway,

I was happy that i bought doremon's donut.

Wakakkakaka.

So so so Happy with it.

And it was interesting to see a lot of ppl wearing ukata and also ppl followed the dance everywhere.

=)

Was half satisfied larrr.

Moodiness Strike me Again

It was on the Thursday if im not mistaken.

I went for lunch with my college friends as usual.

Dunno why.

I was silent for the whole time.

No mood.

Seriously no mood without any reason.

In class i was still hipper and happy and talkative.

During lunch, i was complete silence.

YS ask whether am i ok?

I actually duno how to reply.

Maybe i felt that his gonna call me soon?

When i was planning to go home, my phone rang.

He called. =D

Dunno why, every time i meet him.

I felt comfort.

His kinda like my brother?

I dunno ~

But i do appreciate every time we meet.

Happy or Sad??

Last friday after class, i went to sub to see all my friends.

Haha.

Its been so long after the last time.

I do somehow miss them lorrr.

Haih.

Because of my assignment and stuff giving me less time to even sleep.

I reach there and sat on a couch.

I was chatting with my friends.

Suddenly, i saw 2 africans walk pass by.

It sshould be normal because when i was working there.

A lots of blacks like to shop in SUB.

I ignore them and continue chatting.

Suddenly, one of them talk to me.

He say he want to become my bf??

WTF!!

I like whites ok??

He keep on saying im cute and all.

So???

YOUR NOT MY TYPE!!!

Where got ppl actually fall in love so that fast??

So scary....

We left our phone number too.

I was kena paksa wan.

AHHHHHH....

I keep using reasons to go.

After he let me to go.

I ran to my car and drove away.

Duno why i felt like his following me.

This is not the first time ady.

Pls leave me away.

I only wan whites.

SOB~~~~

Dont judge something with its cover on

I thought they should be peaceful family.

I never thought they will be like this because of money.

Money isnt important then family??

PLEASE THINK PROPERLY!!!

What is done here... ITS DONE!!!!

Why do you guys have to fight for.

Think before you throw all the words out.

You all live longer then me.

So think better then me!!!

Grandpa.... I miss you~~

Dint post anything for a long time ady.

Why??

Cause im having my bad time. 

If time flies back, i will never want or aspect this will come that fast. 

Last last saturday

When i was rushing for my figures which needs to hand up on monday.

My youngest sister that was suppose having piano lesson rush in my room and tell me a shocking news

That was my beloved grandpa has pass away.

My family cant accept this truth and so do I.

My grandpa was a strong and healthy man i ever saw which his age of 80.

He can drive and even take care of himself without letting his children worry about him.

He treats everyone equal.

Although, his a typical china man but he dont think like wan.

Everyone loves him a lot.

I DO.

I last saw him was a month ago.

I was kinda happy that i actuaaly followed my aunt back.

He was laughing with me and we ate dinner together.

By saying this all out makes me feel sad again.

I really do miss him.

His the one everyone respect.

After knowing the news, we pack immediately and rush back to Johor.

My mum told us that grandpa pass away during a car accident.

I wasnt understand why?

He dont drive fast.

The story was that a malay guy bump into my grandpa's old saga. 

Both of them pass away instantly and the malay's wife's leg was broken.

I couldnt say anything bout them.

We leave here so we have to take this as a normal thing.

We prayed for 3 days and burried on tuesday.

But

Until know my mum and me somehow felt that his still around us.

公~我会永远想念你。谢谢你的爱护。我也会永远记得~

Why??

I thought that im moving forward.

But the thing is others are moving double of my speed.

I felt pressure.

A lot~

Feel like regretting now.

But I CANT!

Hard times really do come although how much i like it.

Dad im so sorry.

Im so DAMN STUPID!!!

USELESS!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!

乱乱~

近期，我知道越来越多事情了

我感觉到我复杂的世界好像回来了

看了很多人的blog

她们都开始烦事情了

haih~

我也发现，有些人我好像看露了

有些好像看错了

好人看成坏人

坏人看成好人

勤劳的却看成懒人

懒人事实上不是懒的

好乱哦~

还以为我可以平静度过日子

ASHLEY!!!!

不要想太多！（这是，某人最爱跟我说的^^）

我一定能看开的

我相信我能

^^

26Jun2010

Was quite busy with my assignments this days.

I actually found out what TOA actually means!!!

TOA = Thousands Of Assignments!!!

OMG!

Thats so match.

Today, i went to KL pac.

I thought it will be so fun and surprise to go there.

But i end up to some disappointed.

It was pack with PPL.

And its so Damn Hot!!!

But the fun part was 3 cars going down together.

It was quite interesting.

We end up going back to pyramid to shop.

I met my kai mui accidently with her close college friends.

Hahhahaa.

I felt funny when both of us

erm...

I mean her friend and me know each other because we both like to live comment on my kai mui status.

Hhahaa.

So weird and funny!!!

Assignments^^

Yippie!!\

I finish figure study and my design or my initial name.

Now doing IEST'S essay.

Then tmr left color wind shield and drawing 1.

>.<

Make me feel at least better now.

Jia you Ya.^^

Kick out.

不知道是我多心还是什么

我又发现他们开始离我很远。

我又做错了吗？

好辛苦

为什么？？？

每个环境都是这样？

难道我这人很讨人厌吗？

我真的不知道

有谁可以好心告诉我

T.T

Thank you fren^^

Thank you owl for teaching today. 

I really appreciate. 

Haha. 

I think im not sttanding on the smae ground ady.

I actually walking forward by improving.

>.<

Gambateh Ashley.

Owl!

Dont run away ya.

I wont let you.^^

Muahahhahaha

Unfaithful Fren

Thanks YS. >.< For teaching me. LOL

Maybe i shouldnt have always on fb. I always can see you in it. But somehow im not in your world ady. Maybe you will think that im wrong. But this is me. Maybe im not pretty la. But i want to get along with you. Or somehow i never should be appearing in your world.

I Felt like quite stupid that i always need to smile or laugh in front of you because i do not want you to worry bout me. Im trying hard in a way with my full pack of assignments. Maybe you are too. But in fb i never heard from you.

This days i always heard from my friends about ex friends. Im scared to lost another one again. AND i dont want to. I love and appreciate everyone of you. But  please dont try to hurt me. 

（如果你觉得很伤的话，对不起。但是，这已经在我心里很久了。）

Lazinesssss

Today wanted to go 1u want. But at the end dint go maybe because of our laziness. LOL.

Someone said that i actually change a lot.

They mean pretty larr.

Hahahah.

To me maybe they dint see clearly.

LOL.

Seriously i fall in love with editing pictures.

Thanks to amilia who taught me Picasa Program.

This days i started to get to know all my classmate personality.

Some of them think some of them were like that and some of them do not.

Its somehow complicated in a way.

I found out today today actually like me calling her TOBY JIE.

She a cute little 20 years old friend.

XD

Yesterday one of my friend ask me when are we going small genting.

Was quite happy that he rmb tho.

LOL

Eh, one day la....

When im not having tons of assignment.

I miss my working days!!!!

No assignment!!!

No @!?#$! problem!!!

No need to stay at home duno what to do!!!!

AH!!!!!!

（PS:事实是这样。就请你接受吧！）

Picturess Again. XD

Fall In Love In Editing. <333

Busy Days

Today was kinda busy for me.

I went out with my secondary classmate.

Pui Kuan, Ah Yoke, Kar Nee and Elieen.

We went sing k at red box.

Duno why im so freaking crazy today.

Maybe of my emo issue gua.

But the truth i have lots of fun.

Thank you for KN for frocing me come.

LOL

Later on i drove my sister to SS2.

I damn happy le.

I actually know how to drive there.

Hahahhaha.

Then i went to my grandma house to eat 'zhong'

In ampang.

Im damn lazy these days.

I have 2 potrait and 6 small potraits to draw.

I was thinking to draw today wan.

Hahhaa.

It seem that i have no mood at all.

LOL.

Tmr bah.

Haih.

Duno why the stupid feeling coming back to me again and again.

F you!!

Get away from my life please.

AIYO!!!

人生到底有多少机会呢？

没有人知道。

所以请珍惜现在拥有的。

XD

Moodiness

I somehow found out that almost everyone that i cared the most always leave me in a way.

Maybe they started their own new life.

The life that is better then me.

The life that include friends that is better then me.

Maybe i'm so stupid or brainless to actually fall into the same hole again and again.

We are once so close.

I've never thought of us will separate or even not contacting each other.

Did i tried my best in our friendship?

YES, I DID.

And what i get?

NO RESPOND.

Hahahahaha.

Today, i found out that some issue that im suppose to know.

I think.

We dint actually tried to ignore it.

Somehow i felt everyone should actually tried their best in a way.

Not just sitting there.

This issue actually bring me back to a lot of memories.

I was once a stupid idiot and fall into a stupid friendship.

That i thought we will be so call FRIENDS FOREVER.

Then later on?

All left me because of their so call important stuff.

After this incident, i always have the same issue with friends.

But i still think that if i take my heart to you, i think you will too.

Although some will take my 良心当狗吠.

But i still met some nice friends.

For instance today, I have not actually have the chance to tell my emo stuff yet

because of the new enviroment.

But today my elephant friend actually listen to me.

IM SO GREATFULL.

XD

Hope she did not felt that im too grumpy.

Hahhaa.

I seriously need a time off.

And it help by telling it out in a way.

Just wanna tell everyone that

People are not perfect, please do appreciate the ones beside you.

Or else

One day you regret.

Trust me.

=)

友情也会有第三者的

There's always a third person in our life.

(Ps: 做人要往前看，不要每次往后看。不值得。>.<)

PiCtuR3sss

Drawing Zoo FCD1005-3 by JAYIS

Real person of Zoo FCD1005-3

(Owl>Ashley, Elephant>Yong Shee, Flamingo>Jayis, Snail>Toby,

Giraffe>Amilia and Botak Owl> Angel )

Toby, M3, Angel and YS

Crazy Group Of Friends That i appreciate. >.<

2 cuties...

Kena Paksa to take. Look like owl meh?? ==

We are twins Owl. Yeah.

We tried to look like a couple but end up he look like my gf. lol

I love this picture a lot.XD

Some of my work done in MAY.

Sucks. But my best potrait pic i drawn in MAY.

This apple was eated by me after the lec let us look at it to draw. HAhaha

Figure class. Our 1st class Photo.

Love this Photo too.^^

Amilia on top.

Qiao Sze, Toby and me below.

Today B&W picture. YEAH!!!

The Whole Entire May =)

Im so so sorry for not updating for a month.

Was kinda busy>.<

I mean very very busy.

I will make it a summary for this month. XD

I started in TOA with a feeling of weird ppl in the class room.

Last time, i felt that ppl who love art will actually be very very weird.

LOL.

BUT!!! After 1 or 2 weeks, I get to know well each and everyone in FCD1005-3.

They were actually as crazy as i am.

Sad to admit tho~

Hahahhahahaa.

We hang out sometime but the most i miss was the steamboat dinner.

This is my first time going to eat steamboat with total of 11 ppl.

Was kinda sad with not everyone could attend.

Hope next time we still have all this function.

XD

Although i have only 17 ppl + me in the classroom, but we really do have fun together.

I found out something that mostly everyone love taking pic.

Especially JAYIS>.<

Normally i always sleep around 10 or 11pm, but nowadays i sleep at 1 or latest 4 something in the morning.

I never thought i could actually stay up because of assignment.

I alway thought that sleeping is more important then assignment.

LOL.

We somehow starting to have nickname.

And..... You know what?

This time my nickname is owl!!?!

DO I ACTUALLY LOOK LIKE AN OWL??

LOL

But someone else has a worst nickname ever.

That is botak owl.

She hate it a lot.

But i do think so that is very cute.

In my class, we have owl, botak owl, flamingo, girrafe, snail and elephant.

Hahhahaa.

Happy zoo class.

XD

Today JAYIS came with an idea by wearing black and white.

We took a lot of picture too.

Happy~~

>.<

Thats all i rmb. But if i rmb anything that i miss out.

Dont worry.

Ill post it.

LOL

PS: Seriously after taking class in TOA, somehow i forgoten those who hurt me.

My emo haven been coming out last month or in class.

I admit that these 2 days it coming back again but ill try not too~

But i hope YOU NEVER APPEAR IN MY LIFE AGAIN.

新的环境=新的开始

今天,有人提醒我原来已经很久没有UPDATE了~ 真的叻. 一个结论而已~ 那就是懒... >.<

下个星期, 要到新的大学上课了~ 说实话, 虽然我对那里很陌生, 但是我一点都没有害怕的感觉.感觉好像长大了点. >.<

最近,好像想通了些事. 有个人告诉过我, 朋友不可能永远都保持在你身边. 人会因环境而改变的. 你现在和你觉得最要好的朋友, 都会有可能会离开我的.

所以, 我根本没有带着害怕因为没有朋友在一起. =D (哈哈哈哈. 长大了吧~)

星期一, 要开始上课了. 应该会很忙吧. >.< 希望这4年在那里会国的开心吧~ XD

(PS. 黑暗的世界里,总会有出口到另一个世界. 只是,看看自己肯不肯用心去找和观察身边的人,事物而已. )

Fucking Heart!!!

Where is all your fucking heart???

Im sick with all those me like act like nothing. Do you know is hard for me to follow what everyone needs from me?

CANT WE JUST BE NORMAL FRIEND AND DO WHAT NORMAL FRIEND WILL DO!!!!

NOT MONEY! OUTINGS! CLUBING! CAR! call friends.

Friends supposed to be supportive, always there when you need them. Not meet when theres no new friend. Or forget them when theres new friends.

I kept trying to keep all my friends but end up sometime i felt some of them call me when they need me only. Im still a human being. Cant we meet other calling me for help?? From last time till now still the same problem.

WTF!!!!!

12 ~ 16日的日子

这几天, 过得算是还蛮充足的. 不会说很无聊...

天天都会自找节目, 不然就等朋友约. =D 这几天, 不是唱K, 就是看戏或着是走街. >.< 至少不是天天呆在家, 当个懒猪(>(00)<) 哈哈哈

今天,还蛮好玩的. 早上,在KL吃完早餐才发觉AH YIN和AH TENG的信息,问我要不要11上午唱K. 我当场飞回PYRAMID叻...(飞是夸张点, 但是,是飞车的缩短版本..XD哈哈哈)

我还以为我迟到了..那知道,那两位小姐才刚起床叻.. 我迟回你们是我的错啦...哈哈哈...所以,也不能怪你们啦~PAISEH啦~在此请你们原谅咯. >.<

唱完了后, 我和AH TENG无聊没事干. 去了一家叫'厨房'的店.我们选了衣服变一起进了同一间的试衣间...

你们不要想歪哦~~我可不是L哦~ XD

卡碴!!!卡碴!!!卡碴!!!卡碴!!!

对啦!!我们开始自恋了起来...我们到了一些店玩呢... 还蛮开心的..LOL

晚上,还到了PERDANA喝茶.

其实,在家没什么不好.. 但是, XXX~ 对不起... 我不是一个爱呆在家里的人. >.<

放飞机

Im on my one week holiday now. Haha. Sorry that i have to type in English cause 我发现我英文变得很烂了>.<

This week holiday was not as bad as i thought. Everyone knows that im not a 24hour house person. LOL. 我怎么可能24小时都呆在家吗... XD

Monday, i went all the way to ampang to find my aunt to chat chat... and play her pets. I LOVE THEM so much. Hahahahaa.

Tuesday, went to sing k with minnie and yushui. So sad that i can only sing half way then stop to pick my sister up. 感觉很悲惨叻~

Wednesday, went to do facial. Hehehe. Face important ma.

Today, my firend say wan to come but at the end he fang fei ji. Then at night my friend say wan to come for pasar malam. I thought they will fang fei ji again. Haih. But at the end they came but quite late la.

Tmr, 我知道你在读着>.< My friend has some urgent things to do so we pospone our sing k section to next week. =( But i still found something to do ady tmr. Hehehehhehe.

因为今天让我觉得放飞机好像很普通哦...

但是,我是觉得你要是没有把握可以的话. 是不是应该不要答应别人现?

这个问题我还在自我检讨中. 我自己好像目前很常放人飞机咯>.< 真的很抱歉啦各位...


哈哈哈哈. 我会用我宝贵的放假来检讨咯. (大家不要太嫉妒我的长假期喔...HAHHAHAHA)

无名

现在，躺在床上但是又睡不着。真的不知道要做什么才好。让我来说说我这几天做过什么吧！

这几天我都回了我家乡一趟(Johor) 去拜我婆婆。在那里，我老实说「真的很无聊！！！」我真搞不懂那里的年轻人真么过生活啊！无聊死了！！

今天，我回到家后不知为何我还是感觉很无聊耶~ （＞.＜）

而且，我也感觉很空虚。不知道为什么。。。想了很久，但是我还是不知道。

离开SUB了

不知不觉, 我在SUB工作都已经3个月了... 时间过的真的很快...我还记得我第一天去上班时,超级恨SUB里所有的人...全都看起来很凶...好想我得罪他们一样...那时,我还想说如果过多两天还是一样,我就不做了...

想我这样的个性, 怎么可以静静不说话啊!!! 我快要闷死, 而不是脚痛死叻!!!!

第3天了~ 我快要不行了... 我决定要明天RESIGN... 怎知道最臭的志勇开了他的金口跟我说话(我都以为他嘴里有金,所以不敢开口>.<)... AH HOW 也是!!!

我有3个SUPERVISOR...有两个是姐妹...那姐姐第一天对我超凶的...我超级怕她的...有人告诉我,妹妹看起来比较凶...但是, 不知道为什么我一开始就是没有那种对她的恐惧感...可能她INTERVIEW我吧...哈哈哈哈...

但是,过了几天后,我跟大家都玩熟了...我现在真的很怀念那些日子叻~ 不管,它们是喜怒哀乐...我一一都记心理...那里工作是很辛苦...但是,我拥有很多美好的回忆... =) 真的很谢谢你们...让我觉得PROMOTER不是那种LALA做的而已...>.<

抱歉啦~ 第一天看到你们时, 都很LANCI样啊~ 认识你们后, 才觉得不是... >.<

我真的希望你们不会想我以前的朋友~ 说联络但是现在消息都没有了...说实话我相信你们...


对我来说朋友都是来来去去~ 我知道大家都是这么人为... 但是,有一句话叫只要有心, 我们的友谊一定能永久的~ 只是双方都要付出而已. =)我一定会... 看你们而已. =D

Friends

Sometime i felt friends around me are so damn fake. Its like they always wearing a mask. No ones using their heart to talk. All using their brain or maybe NOT.

I always thought i can see through ppl. Nowadays, i don't no who is lying to me and who is not. Im confuse and im sicking tired of this. Using my fake face and smile to every fake face in front of me. Maybe im too realistic but seriously i damn FUCK OFF with all this fake ppl around me for so many years. Cant anyone make them to wake up??

I just told one of my friend this ( DO WHAT YOU SHOULD DO, DON'T DO WHAT PPL WANT YOU TO DO ) I like this status. It make me feel strong sometime.

Actually today was ordinary day that i went to work normally. Additional information that is my last day is on tuesday. Im so gonna miss all my sub friends plus ex sub staff friends. >.<

Being used

I was kinda stupid to noticed it so damn late. Nowadays i felt like theres no real friendship anymore. Theres only people with a fake heart talking to everyone with their fake smile. Sometime i felt that people should not used others to get what they want. Everyone need some respect. PLEASE RESPECT PPL FIRST because everyone have their own feeling!!!!!

秘密

秘密, 应该每个人都有吧...
但是, 我有个问题...
为什么人和人都要有秘密啊?
对某些人来说有秘密, 是在保护自己吧...
但对我来说秘密是个很烦的东西...
也是个会让人和人之间产生误会的事情...

秘密, 藏在心里很久也会感觉不舒服...
所以秘密是一种我一生人不喜欢的东西...>.<

私心

每个人都有私心,
只是每个人的私心都不同,
有的心计很重,
有的却为了其他人.
不管怎么样的私心,
在我心里都是一样的.

但是为什么每个人都一定要有它呢?
没有了它, 难道不能吗?
有了它, 人就要活在一个很假的世界里.

我不能说我没有它,
但是,我会利用它.
然后, 不让它伤害任何一个在我身边的人. >.<