To the So Call ExBff

I just woke up from my nap but still thinking about it.

SERIOUSLY....

SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!

I never knew you say the word weird to me???

I were actually closer to you!!

Right???

Im the one trying to break the ice and you???

Damn shit piss off when i heard from HER.

She ask me do i care anymore?

I say no no more...

Actually i do....

How the hell i could actually say that i care about you???

If you dont even care.

我看错你了

真的离谱的错

You were once my bestest friend 

and

you betray me

and?

i still trying to change things

and??

what did you actually did??

NOTHING!!!

Please dont come back if can.

Knowing bout you make me hurt alot

alot~

Maybe im just a stupid doll for you

to joke and play around

and its time for you to throw?

Hahaha.

Yeah

I think is like that.

Thanks for your short friendship.

Ill never ever forget you.

PS: 世界上，太多带着假面具的人。很难看清或很难明白~肯难交心给他们。

有时交了后，肯不知他们会把我们的心当什么。

友谊万岁？

想清楚在把这四个字说出来吧。。。 朋友！！！！

Bon Ordori

It was yesterday.XD

I went Bon ordori which held at Shah Alma with Ker shin, SW, Lai and a china friend.

We took KTM then Shutter bus there.

WOW~

There a huge crowd there.

This is my first time attending it.

I will never go again in my life SERIOUSLY.

We got lost and actually cant contact each other at all.

WTH.

The line sucks there.

We need to que for so long just to buy food.

I really want to know why ppl actually go for this every year.

Can someone tell me isnt fun to get lost in a crowd?

Anyway,

I was happy that i bought doremon's donut.

Wakakkakaka.

So so so Happy with it.

And it was interesting to see a lot of ppl wearing ukata and also ppl followed the dance everywhere.

=)

Was half satisfied larrr.

Moodiness Strike me Again

It was on the Thursday if im not mistaken.

I went for lunch with my college friends as usual.

Dunno why.

I was silent for the whole time.

No mood.

Seriously no mood without any reason.

In class i was still hipper and happy and talkative.

During lunch, i was complete silence.

YS ask whether am i ok?

I actually duno how to reply.

Maybe i felt that his gonna call me soon?

When i was planning to go home, my phone rang.

He called. =D

Dunno why, every time i meet him.

I felt comfort.

His kinda like my brother?

I dunno ~

But i do appreciate every time we meet.

Happy or Sad??

Last friday after class, i went to sub to see all my friends.

Haha.

Its been so long after the last time.

I do somehow miss them lorrr.

Haih.

Because of my assignment and stuff giving me less time to even sleep.

I reach there and sat on a couch.

I was chatting with my friends.

Suddenly, i saw 2 africans walk pass by.

It sshould be normal because when i was working there.

A lots of blacks like to shop in SUB.

I ignore them and continue chatting.

Suddenly, one of them talk to me.

He say he want to become my bf??

WTF!!

I like whites ok??

He keep on saying im cute and all.

So???

YOUR NOT MY TYPE!!!

Where got ppl actually fall in love so that fast??

So scary....

We left our phone number too.

I was kena paksa wan.

AHHHHHH....

I keep using reasons to go.

After he let me to go.

I ran to my car and drove away.

Duno why i felt like his following me.

This is not the first time ady.

Pls leave me away.

I only wan whites.

SOB~~~~

Dont judge something with its cover on

I thought they should be peaceful family.

I never thought they will be like this because of money.

Money isnt important then family??

PLEASE THINK PROPERLY!!!

What is done here... ITS DONE!!!!

Why do you guys have to fight for.

Think before you throw all the words out.

You all live longer then me.

So think better then me!!!

Grandpa.... I miss you~~

Dint post anything for a long time ady.

Why??

Cause im having my bad time. 

If time flies back, i will never want or aspect this will come that fast. 

Last last saturday

When i was rushing for my figures which needs to hand up on monday.

My youngest sister that was suppose having piano lesson rush in my room and tell me a shocking news

That was my beloved grandpa has pass away.

My family cant accept this truth and so do I.

My grandpa was a strong and healthy man i ever saw which his age of 80.

He can drive and even take care of himself without letting his children worry about him.

He treats everyone equal.

Although, his a typical china man but he dont think like wan.

Everyone loves him a lot.

I DO.

I last saw him was a month ago.

I was kinda happy that i actuaaly followed my aunt back.

He was laughing with me and we ate dinner together.

By saying this all out makes me feel sad again.

I really do miss him.

His the one everyone respect.

After knowing the news, we pack immediately and rush back to Johor.

My mum told us that grandpa pass away during a car accident.

I wasnt understand why?

He dont drive fast.

The story was that a malay guy bump into my grandpa's old saga. 

Both of them pass away instantly and the malay's wife's leg was broken.

I couldnt say anything bout them.

We leave here so we have to take this as a normal thing.

We prayed for 3 days and burried on tuesday.

But

Until know my mum and me somehow felt that his still around us.

公~我会永远想念你。谢谢你的爱护。我也会永远记得~

Why??

I thought that im moving forward.

But the thing is others are moving double of my speed.

I felt pressure.

A lot~

Feel like regretting now.

But I CANT!

Hard times really do come although how much i like it.

Dad im so sorry.

Im so DAMN STUPID!!!

USELESS!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!