To you!

妈的！

Early In the Morning^^

Started my Holiday day ady.

Phew¬

I now only feel like i actually a human being.

Before that because of assignments.

I scarifies my beauty sleep.

Felt weird you know.

I actually dint went out with friends from my first day of holiday till now.

Maybe im too tired.

Lazy to drive out or even step out of my room.>.<

But my holiday dint start of with a nice memory.

I started of with a car accident then large presentation and drawing test. @@

Shit like hell.

Later on food poisoning.

Me and my sis.

Haih.

Seriously, my holiday sucks.

The best part was that i can at last sleep for more then 5 hours per day.

( actually i slept for at least 9 hour per day)

Love it.

IELST is just beeside the corner.

Seriously. DUno what to study....

Anyone!!! can you tell me what to study??

haha....

Hope to past it.

I think i will^^

Fb vs Wei Buo

Fall in love with Wei Buo.

A program which is similar with FB.

But to me i felt better.

Cause no one know me.

Unknown.^^

Im back^^

Was so Damn shit stress on this week.

No time to even breath.

But im back for more of my life time story.

Today class was cancel but unfortunately i need to go for group discussion.

which means still have to go SUNWAY.

Our group discuss it in Mc Donalds.

To tell the truth,

I duno whether our points are relevant or not.

What to do???

Tmr need to present.

Haih.

Was even more stress when ker shin told me this.

She said that Pinky praised our group presentation was so damn standard.

She look up so high to me and ker shin.

Was so fuck up stress.

I wasnt scared bout tmr presentation just now.

But now!!

I can feel the stresss.

Hope everything goes well tmr.

Did i forgot to mention???

TMR IS MY LAST DAY O CLASS FOR MY FIRST SEM.

YEAH!!!

That means HOLIDAY!!!!

Not myself anymore

Starting not to hate figure ady.

But this coming monday is my last class.

love it too late.

Art really somehow make me concentrate on it ady.

Her?

She is in somewhere in my heart sitting and resting.

But she will never come out.

Drawing make me has less time thinking nonsenses or even things that do not worth me crying on.

at first when i started in TOA.

I thought i will be the last in the class cause my drawing sucks.

But now drawing is not to compare is somehow learning from others.

In my life now, i seriously spend least of my time caring or even thinking.

Yeah~

Maybe one of my friend said that i shouldnt care so much about ppl

cause you will get hurt easily.

As you can see,

ill get hurt 24-7

But i still like this.

I love my friends in TOA now.

Not much problem~

Peacefull then sunway.

Do i hate sunway?

No~

Just dont like it there.

Sorry for all my lovely readers that care bout me reading all this stupid stuff.

Ill try to post something happier next time.

Cause ill change.

You'll see.^^

LIFE SUCKS!!!

Today was the worst day ever.

WORST DAY!

I was driving to class in the morning.

AND I SAW A DEAD CAT in the MIDDLE OF THE ROAD!!!

I duno whther did i drive through it or ssmash it.

I cant avoid it because it was too late.

Was kinda moody after that.

But i got back into my mood by eating breakfast with elephant and botak owl.

Later, this huge thing happen~

I never thought of it.

I wrote a letter to ye seul, my korean friend yesterday.

It was rough letter.

I told her what i felt and all.

Ask her question that like why she contact MINNIE instead of me?

I was so damn fuck off when minnie told me she change her mind and flying to malaysia next week.

Hahaha.

I was kinda happy that i have the guts to tell everything out.

I really do love my relationship with her.

In class today, i received a call from minnie saying that something huge has happen.

She say that i misunderstand her that she is comning back to give me a surprise!!!

WTF!!!

On that time, i seriously do not really trust her.

Every damn shit thing i know bout ys is from her and duno whether is it correct transfer to me or not.

I went in fb straight away and saw her replied.

I read and only found out that she really do want to give me a surprise birthday party. Earlier.

She thought of not distroying my birthday with my family so she came early.

She prepared my present already and i did not did anything for her.

But i still have a question that why she did not msg me for 6 months. 6 MONTHS!!!

Time make me think a lot. Cant seriously blame me.

How can a person not think badly when the person she care dissapear in her life and knowing her exist from another person.

Haih~

I cried in class~~~

My first time.

Thanks ker shin that given me support in class when im down.

Seriously it helps.

THanks to botak owl and ker shin teman me makan too.

After that i felt better.

When i was driving back home with a speed that i do not know.

I saw the motorcycle in front of me bang in to the wall beside the road.

The whole motorcycle broke into half!

The man fly off the motorcycle.

I did not stop.

Sorry to say that cause if i stop, i will block the whole traffic but i saw another motorist stop and help.

So i drive away.

Today was the worst day of my life!!!

First the dead cat.

Second, YS that duno whether we can can back together.

Last!!! Motorcycle accident in front of me.

WTF LIFE!!!!

以前的我呢？

很可笑~ 我这几天好像发现我不再是以前的韩佩仪了!

不再是那个爱玩爱闹的那个人。

不再是那个懒惰虫。

不再是没有朋友会死的人。

不再是24小时，都在嘻嘻大笑的人。

以前的我，不管在哪都会很开心的笑。

一定要有朋友。

要天天出街。

现在？

变了变了。。。

原因？

我也不知道。。。

是好是坏，我也分不清了~

有人曾经告诉我。。。

孤单并非没有朋友

只是，想透透气~ 看看身边的东西。

PS:

心~

依然跳动着。。。

但是

我已经没有感觉了~

To the So Call ExBff

I just woke up from my nap but still thinking about it.

SERIOUSLY....

SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!

I never knew you say the word weird to me???

I were actually closer to you!!

Right???

Im the one trying to break the ice and you???

Damn shit piss off when i heard from HER.

She ask me do i care anymore?

I say no no more...

Actually i do....

How the hell i could actually say that i care about you???

If you dont even care.

我看错你了

真的离谱的错

You were once my bestest friend 

and

you betray me

and?

i still trying to change things

and??

what did you actually did??

NOTHING!!!

Please dont come back if can.

Knowing bout you make me hurt alot

alot~

Maybe im just a stupid doll for you

to joke and play around

and its time for you to throw?

Hahaha.

Yeah

I think is like that.

Thanks for your short friendship.

Ill never ever forget you.

PS: 世界上，太多带着假面具的人。很难看清或很难明白~肯难交心给他们。

有时交了后，肯不知他们会把我们的心当什么。

友谊万岁？

想清楚在把这四个字说出来吧。。。 朋友！！！！

Bon Ordori

It was yesterday.XD

I went Bon ordori which held at Shah Alma with Ker shin, SW, Lai and a china friend.

We took KTM then Shutter bus there.

WOW~

There a huge crowd there.

This is my first time attending it.

I will never go again in my life SERIOUSLY.

We got lost and actually cant contact each other at all.

WTH.

The line sucks there.

We need to que for so long just to buy food.

I really want to know why ppl actually go for this every year.

Can someone tell me isnt fun to get lost in a crowd?

Anyway,

I was happy that i bought doremon's donut.

Wakakkakaka.

So so so Happy with it.

And it was interesting to see a lot of ppl wearing ukata and also ppl followed the dance everywhere.

=)

Was half satisfied larrr.

Moodiness Strike me Again

It was on the Thursday if im not mistaken.

I went for lunch with my college friends as usual.

Dunno why.

I was silent for the whole time.

No mood.

Seriously no mood without any reason.

In class i was still hipper and happy and talkative.

During lunch, i was complete silence.

YS ask whether am i ok?

I actually duno how to reply.

Maybe i felt that his gonna call me soon?

When i was planning to go home, my phone rang.

He called. =D

Dunno why, every time i meet him.

I felt comfort.

His kinda like my brother?

I dunno ~

But i do appreciate every time we meet.

Happy or Sad??

Last friday after class, i went to sub to see all my friends.

Haha.

Its been so long after the last time.

I do somehow miss them lorrr.

Haih.

Because of my assignment and stuff giving me less time to even sleep.

I reach there and sat on a couch.

I was chatting with my friends.

Suddenly, i saw 2 africans walk pass by.

It sshould be normal because when i was working there.

A lots of blacks like to shop in SUB.

I ignore them and continue chatting.

Suddenly, one of them talk to me.

He say he want to become my bf??

WTF!!

I like whites ok??

He keep on saying im cute and all.

So???

YOUR NOT MY TYPE!!!

Where got ppl actually fall in love so that fast??

So scary....

We left our phone number too.

I was kena paksa wan.

AHHHHHH....

I keep using reasons to go.

After he let me to go.

I ran to my car and drove away.

Duno why i felt like his following me.

This is not the first time ady.

Pls leave me away.

I only wan whites.

SOB~~~~

Dont judge something with its cover on

I thought they should be peaceful family.

I never thought they will be like this because of money.

Money isnt important then family??

PLEASE THINK PROPERLY!!!

What is done here... ITS DONE!!!!

Why do you guys have to fight for.

Think before you throw all the words out.

You all live longer then me.

So think better then me!!!

Grandpa.... I miss you~~

Dint post anything for a long time ady.

Why??

Cause im having my bad time. 

If time flies back, i will never want or aspect this will come that fast. 

Last last saturday

When i was rushing for my figures which needs to hand up on monday.

My youngest sister that was suppose having piano lesson rush in my room and tell me a shocking news

That was my beloved grandpa has pass away.

My family cant accept this truth and so do I.

My grandpa was a strong and healthy man i ever saw which his age of 80.

He can drive and even take care of himself without letting his children worry about him.

He treats everyone equal.

Although, his a typical china man but he dont think like wan.

Everyone loves him a lot.

I DO.

I last saw him was a month ago.

I was kinda happy that i actuaaly followed my aunt back.

He was laughing with me and we ate dinner together.

By saying this all out makes me feel sad again.

I really do miss him.

His the one everyone respect.

After knowing the news, we pack immediately and rush back to Johor.

My mum told us that grandpa pass away during a car accident.

I wasnt understand why?

He dont drive fast.

The story was that a malay guy bump into my grandpa's old saga. 

Both of them pass away instantly and the malay's wife's leg was broken.

I couldnt say anything bout them.

We leave here so we have to take this as a normal thing.

We prayed for 3 days and burried on tuesday.

But

Until know my mum and me somehow felt that his still around us.

公~我会永远想念你。谢谢你的爱护。我也会永远记得~

Why??

I thought that im moving forward.

But the thing is others are moving double of my speed.

I felt pressure.

A lot~

Feel like regretting now.

But I CANT!

Hard times really do come although how much i like it.

Dad im so sorry.

Im so DAMN STUPID!!!

USELESS!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!

乱乱~

近期，我知道越来越多事情了

我感觉到我复杂的世界好像回来了

看了很多人的blog

她们都开始烦事情了

haih~

我也发现，有些人我好像看露了

有些好像看错了

好人看成坏人

坏人看成好人

勤劳的却看成懒人

懒人事实上不是懒的

好乱哦~

还以为我可以平静度过日子

ASHLEY!!!!

不要想太多！（这是，某人最爱跟我说的^^）

我一定能看开的

我相信我能

^^

26Jun2010

Was quite busy with my assignments this days.

I actually found out what TOA actually means!!!

TOA = Thousands Of Assignments!!!

OMG!

Thats so match.

Today, i went to KL pac.

I thought it will be so fun and surprise to go there.

But i end up to some disappointed.

It was pack with PPL.

And its so Damn Hot!!!

But the fun part was 3 cars going down together.

It was quite interesting.

We end up going back to pyramid to shop.

I met my kai mui accidently with her close college friends.

Hahhahaa.

I felt funny when both of us

erm...

I mean her friend and me know each other because we both like to live comment on my kai mui status.

Hhahaa.

So weird and funny!!!

Assignments^^

Yippie!!\

I finish figure study and my design or my initial name.

Now doing IEST'S essay.

Then tmr left color wind shield and drawing 1.

>.<

Make me feel at least better now.

Jia you Ya.^^

Kick out.

不知道是我多心还是什么

我又发现他们开始离我很远。

我又做错了吗？

好辛苦

为什么？？？

每个环境都是这样？

难道我这人很讨人厌吗？

我真的不知道

有谁可以好心告诉我

T.T

Thank you fren^^

Thank you owl for teaching today. 

I really appreciate. 

Haha. 

I think im not sttanding on the smae ground ady.

I actually walking forward by improving.

>.<

Gambateh Ashley.

Owl!

Dont run away ya.

I wont let you.^^

Muahahhahaha

Unfaithful Fren

Thanks YS. >.< For teaching me. LOL

Maybe i shouldnt have always on fb. I always can see you in it. But somehow im not in your world ady. Maybe you will think that im wrong. But this is me. Maybe im not pretty la. But i want to get along with you. Or somehow i never should be appearing in your world.

I Felt like quite stupid that i always need to smile or laugh in front of you because i do not want you to worry bout me. Im trying hard in a way with my full pack of assignments. Maybe you are too. But in fb i never heard from you.

This days i always heard from my friends about ex friends. Im scared to lost another one again. AND i dont want to. I love and appreciate everyone of you. But  please dont try to hurt me. 

（如果你觉得很伤的话，对不起。但是，这已经在我心里很久了。）